💗 I have fallen in love.💑

Its been a long time since I've written...and SO MUCH has happened!!!

I am in love.

I knew almost instantly.

Our first date lasted 48 hours and started with my birthday.

We met at a spiritual retreat…and left together.

Midway through our first date we did a couples counseling session with a minister we both trust. We already knew we had a connection we wanted to nurture.

I told her I loved her before the end of that first date.

We’ve known each less than two months.

But we have been looking for each other our whole lives. Probably much longer.

There are so many aspects of our connection that are magical.

Our communication is incredible. We are perfectly matched in communication styles, speed, and humor. The dance of our talks is so easeful, and the content so rich. She is my best audience ever — she gets all my jokes instantly and we laugh constantly.

When she smiles I feel like the richest man in the world.

She is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.

She has the voice of an angel.

And when she shares her spiritual or personal growth thoughts, I listen with eagerness. We both have done significant work on ourselves and are grateful for one another’s pasts.

We met each other at the perfect time — for both of us.

I wouldn’t have been ready for her a month earlier.

The more we get to know each other, the less crazy it feels.

We have so much in common.

Share so many opinions and tastes.

We are equals, but complimentary.

We teach and learn from each other.

I said, “I think you are a nicer person than I am.”

She said, “I was thinking the same about you.”

She has a deeper practice when it comes to social justice.

I have a deeper practice in connecting with strangers.

We both have experience on stage, but shine in very different ways.

We both have talents that the other thinks, “Wow…How do you do that!!?”

We fluidly pass leadership back and forth.

We both trust each other to lead, and feel comfortable leading. There are places where I struggle that she is easeful. And places where I feel more comfortable taking control.

We both have dedicated significant time and energy to our gratitude practices.

We end every day together by sharing something we appreciate about the other person.

We are getting to know each other.

We are building trust.

We are building patterns.

We are committed to honesty and growth.

I feel like I was lead to her by some divine force. I am trusting that the same force will lead this relationship, too.

All I know is that my heart is bursting, I am devoted to Lisa, and the present moment is absolutely perfect.

“Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded. Someone sober will worry about events going badly. Let the lover be.” -Rumi

(I’m also planning on returning to Burning Man with Lisa and am 4.5 months free of intoxicants! But I’ll share about that in a different post.)

LOVE YOU!

-John Halcyon Styn