🤍 RIP Janus. I'm filled with grief and inspiration.
p.s. March 15 Mens Group is SOLD OUT. Contact me for waiting list.
10 years ago, I was invited to my very 1st Men’s Group by my friend, Janus.
He has been a role-model of evolved masculine self-awareness ever since.
For the last 2 years, Janus co-hosted our weekly podcast “STAY SPARKED.” (One episode was even about Mens Groups.)
Last month, Janus died.
Janus was also the one who introduced me to one of my mens work mentors, Ishmiel.
In 2 weeks, I am co-leading a day-long Men’s Group with Ishmiel.
…the thread of impact and inspiration continues.
As I feel Janus’ presence in my life - even in the absence of his physical form - it is powerful evidence of how the ripples of our lives continue on through the people we touch and inspire.
NOTE: The Gathering of Heart-Centered Men I’m co-leading with Ishmiel in Santa Barbara SOLD OUT. But we just made space for 3 more participants. If you were unable to secure a spot, act quickly to grab the last seats, or message me to be put on the waiting list.
Betsy and I just recorded a new “STAY SPARKED” episode to talk about the intimate final month we spent with our co-host and brother.
Listen here on Spotify. Or watch on YouTube.
*We are working on an deeper tribute episode filled with stories about Janus.
Since his passing, I’ve been going through old “STAY SPARKED” episodes and collecting clips of Janus’ wit and wisdom.
I get to hear him share soothing thoughts on death and grief.
It fills the emptiness inside me with his recorded voice.
But it doesn’t feel like bypassing - It feels like reverence.
Every once in a while I’ll find an absolute treasure. Some clip of grand wisdom or his full-bellied laugh.
Such a strange feeling to hear his voice and be filled with delight — and then remember that he is gone.
Like a rainbow when the sun comes out…an odd combination of grief and joy. It has been deeply healing for me - just as is was when I spent time editing recordings of my grandpa when he passed in 2007.
Check out the latest Janus clips I’ve edited at https://www.youtube.com/@RememberingRedmoon
Before every STAY SPARKED recording, the three of us would spend 20-30 minutes doing personal check-ins. Sometimes, when life was hectic, we would prioritize our connection and choose not to record. I realized that, other than my partner Lisa, I’ve spent more time with Janus and Betsy over the past few years than anyone else.
The waves of loss hit me unexpectedly.
I’ve been practicing, “Grieving with Gratitude.”
And I’m really feeling the preciousness of every moment shared with people I love.
I love you.
-John
p.s. Janus’ celebration of life is March 23 in North San Diego.
